Life's Journey

Well, its been two weeks since I last wrote...I have been very busy.  Work has been well work and since summer vacations are over we are actually busier.  Plus, I have been putting in tons of applications for part time jobs.  I hope I hear something soon.  It would be nice.  Call me sick but I do not mind working.  In addition, I need to call the local community college and get myself into the program that I want to be in.  So anyway, yeah I  have lots to do.  I have been working out religiously like every day well except for Friday and Saturday...give myself some type of break.  Anyyway, I gotta eat and then get ready for work.

Not that long again I reconnected with one of my friends that I had stopped talking to when I was like 15.  Well, instead of being a nice person and keeping in contact I so witchly dismissed him- like I stopped talking to him all together.  It has been eating me up inside for a long time and I finally had enough courage to send an email stating how sorry I was.  That had to have been one of the toughest emails I think I have ever sent.  I think what makes it even worse is that I waited so long to do it plus, I honestly do not know what this person will do. Will they forgive me or won't they?   I just have to wait and see.  I never had this many knots in my stomach before.  Like I felt so bad that things I know were his favorites like hockey, and australia and new zealand I could not even bear to hear cuz it just ate at me.   :-(   And like what bothers me even more is that I know he was going through a rough time and I just left it.  Now, I dunno if he is ok or what is going on.  We shall see and I just pray it is a good outcome. 

 

Well..today was a semi-productive day...Let's see I:

I FINALLY got my car registered in the state I moved to....I was surprised by how much it cost and then remembered why I waited so long.
Cleaned the apartment and I have a candle that smells like pears so now my living room smells good!!
And I applied at Barnes and Nobles for a part time job so I can get out of debt faster! I figured there is no use waiting for my bf to help(even though it was stuff for him on my cc)  Lets just say I have learned a lot and will never make the mistake of letting your significant other say they will pay you back and especially when you are not married to them.  Plus, I wanna save so I can take an awesome vacation and so I can get Christmas presents that people actually want. 

As, how is it going with him....back to square one.  Thought I saw progress but nah I must have been daydreaming.  So now for the rest of the day I am going to write and watch Sailor Moon episodes while I ge the laundry done.

Only 5 more days until my 24th bday!!!  YAY!!! 

<3 Aurora

PS:  Smile Loki...we all love you! *hugs*
 

Last night, I was very proud of myself, I sat down and wrote four new drabbles for the SM Monthly challenge and I even read one to my b/f and he liked it.  Apparently, he takes a sneak peek into my one writing tablet I have at home and he asked me the other day where the rest of the story was to a little something I began writing. That kind of shocked me because normally he makes fun of me or something.  Making progress I dunno... ANYHOW, it was amazing I was sitting at the table just writing and then like all of a sudden ideas started coming to me and forming and bam stories were forming.  Totally awesome.  I have to say out of all of my drabbles my favorite is Little Black Dress.  I can see something like that happening to Mina.  Haha...gave me a good chuckle.  ^_^

I have work today...oh yay!  But gotta pay the bills so I guess its a good thing I have a job when a lot of people do not.  I am waiting for information to come in about some of the majors I am investigating into.  Should be a good.  I mean my degree is in Business Admin and right now there is not much going on in the business world that is stable.  Plus, my downfall is that these places are looking for management exp.  where I am trying to build that portion of my resume up.  What I really wish I could do is become a professional writer/ editor.  I think I would be ok at it,  but I also applied for info on Medical Lab tech too.  We shall see what happens.  Anyhow, I gotta get ready for work and straighten up this apartment.  Later!

Little Black Dress/Parents

Surprise Surprise

          Of all the outfits she could have worn, her current ensemble, a skimpy black dress with a low v neck and low back, was by far the worst outfit for the date she was currently on.  When Andrew told her to dress nicely because he had a surprise in store for her, she pictured the new Italian restaurant that just opened up down the street from the arcade.  Never did she think he meant meeting his parents.  Looking up she saw his father once again trying very hard to not let his eyes stray down to her cleavage and she could read the accusations forming on his mother’s face.  Yet, there sat an all too oblivious Andrew as he continued to talk about how he met the angel sitting beside him.

Stood Up

          Mina sat down on the nearest park bench checking her watch, “Three o’clock and still no call” an exasperated blonde said.  Sitting there she began to replay the events in her head that took place earlier that day when she met Mark.  The execution of her bend and snap was right on, not too much bend and just enough snap.  They had a great conversation with plenty of arm touching and then the real clincher, her signature wink after she gave him her phone number. So why on Earth had he not called yet?  Staring down at her cell phone for what seemed like a good thirty minutes she got up and began walking home.  ‘If he did not call by the time she went to sleep tonight the man MUST be gay’ she thought ‘because NO STRAIGHT man ever turns down one of Mina’s famous winks!’

Career Change

Her Calling

          Dark orange clouds cluttered the sky making the planet of Venus appear dark and dreary.  This dreary demeanor matched the exact way the Vesuvian Princess was feeling.  Looking up at the foreboding clouds the Princess sighed, tears falling down her face.  Today was suppose to be the day she began her official training to be THE Goddess of Love.  Instead, she sat in her room awaiting her fate.  Late last night a hologram came in from the Queen of the Moon herself explaining that she must meet with the King and Queen of Venus on an urgent matter involving her daughter and the summoning of the other Sailor Soldiers.

          Venus already knew that at birth she was given the power to help protect the universe, a power passed down from generation to generation.  If she was called upon she was to report at once.  Hearing her name called through the door she stood up and wiped the tears from her eyes ready to embark on this new path chosen for her and to kick the living daylights out of the evil that interrupted her journey to become THE Goddess of Love.

Masquerade
                                                                                            MASK

           Princess Venus stood in front of the double mahogany doors, slowly going over the facts and agenda she had in her head as she tried to calm herself. This meeting between the head of the Royal Earth Guard and herself was very critical because in a matter of weeks the Lunarian heir would be coming to Earth as the Ambassador to the Moon. So, coordinating security was the utmost important factor. Gripping the door handles, and breathing in once again while straightening her back, Princess Venus opened the door and quickly replaced her normal radiant smile with an emotionless mask.

This is for the SM challenge in July under the category Dynamite...

Sailor V Strikes Again...

“Dynamite! Dynamite!” Serena cackled falling back onto the floor while she read the new Sailor V comic, “Dynamite! That is how Sailor V frees the prisoners?!“ Swiping it from her best friend Mina stared in shock as she read over the page. Her face began to turn three different shades of red as anger steamed out her ears. “Uh, Mina, you know it’s just a comic right? I mean we all know you were WAY cooler when you were Sailor V and would not just free prisoners with dynamite. Mina, MINA!! Where are you going” a now very perturbed odango wearing blonde yelled to her friend. Not even looking back Mina yelled “To go show those idiot writers just what exactly Sailor V would do!”

So I worked today...it was boring.  Well, boring but productive.  I got a lot of the audits done that need to be done every month.  Now Monday is coming in a few days and all hell is gonna break loose at work.  I mean for once I am going to try and to enforce some of the policy since it is apparent that they have not been in like forever.  Anyhow, as for the writing I have been trying my hand in drabbles.  I had an hour lunch so I tried to write something.  I guess what makes it a little hard right now is while Mina is a great character she was not my favorite so I never got to into learning much about her well much about the other Scouts like I did Sailor Moon.  So yeah. 

As for my boyfriend he is passed out...he was drinking.  So now, with his snoring in the background I get to write.  Unfortunately, my life is kind of boring so I don't have much to write about.

I hate when I have a list of things to do and I don't complete all of it!  Like yesterday, I wanted to edit the 2nd part of a story for the great writer Stargirl, look into going back to school for ANOTHER degree(yes I'm sick I LOVE school), apply for a part ime job at my most favorite store ever...Barnes and Noble( I LOVE books too!),  clean my apartment, and start browsing the scholarships out there.  I got to most of it...like the looking into colleges since I live like literally 15 mins away from three and two of those I can get to in less than 10.  I did clean my apartment.  I however did not get to edit nor apply for my job.  I did however begin writing some drabbles for the SM Monthly.  I have three done so far.  I also went onlne to check out my healthcare options, like what doctors I can go for getting my eyes checked because I NEED glasses.  I know Ineed them because I look at a computer all day long and after awhile my eyes start to hurt.  Plus, I LOVE reading and those tiny prints don't always help either.  This weekend I am determined to get my liscense changed to the new start I live in AND begin the process of getting my car registered in this state too.  Which means I need to get an oil change ASAP otherwise I won't pass inspection.  So yeah.  So much to do so little time.  Anyhow, I gotta go for now, I have to get ready for work...dun dun dun.  Later

MY BIRTHDAY IS ONLY 14 DAYS AWAY!!!  The big 2-4!!!! 

WOW 7 weeks it has been since I last wrote...like almost two whole months.  Yes, life has been rather hectic.  I have noticed that when I am really busy or just emotionally empty I can not write to save my life.  Like, for weeks I have been writing and rewriting my stories but like I hate them.  I want them PERFECT!!!  It gets kind of nerve racking...like I write and I read it and I hate it so I throw it out.  I'm a perfectionist and I want things right the first time...ehh and with writing you can't be that way but its my nature and I can not help it!!!!   I think what sucks is I won't let anyone read anything I write because I don't want them to hate it or criticize it.  I'm my worst critic too.  Plus, I'd have my bf read it but he thinks I'm a complete nerd for liking sailor moon and like when I do have him to  try to read something he mocks it.  He is not a very good person to go to.  Then again my relationship is kinda going down hill.....I mean it feels like we have come to a point where he just wants to sit back and watch life while i'm more of the get up and live life.  I do more things on my own than I do with him.  I constantly ask, you wanna do this and the answer is always no.  I mean for goodness sakes it takes major convincing to get him to go to the movies with me.  All he wants to do is sit home and play world of war craft.  Which is fine but like he doesn't do anything either.  No helping with the apartment I have to figure the bills out.  I'm not a slave for goodness sakes!!!  So yeah, right now I am kind of like building ME back up because unlike what he might think he has torn me down a lot.  I have never met a person who points out all of your physical flaws.  Like He doesn't call me heavy but like he will be like look you got a pimple on your nose (and its like DUH I'm getting my period) and I already know its there.  I dont point out how over weight he is and his pecks are starting to look like boobs.  Umm no, cause I'm not mean like that.  Don't get me wrong, we have our good days but like lately it seems like more and more bad ones.  His parents are a constant thorn in the side and damages our relationship cuz they feel he should visit every weekend and course cause their house is boring I stay at the apartment alone.  You would think it would be a great time to write, but I am sooo mad and emotionally drained by then I can't focus.  GRRRRR!!!!! See just thinking about it pisses me off.  Our parents met for the first time this weekend and his mom and dad barely spoke meanwhile my parents were trying to keep the conversation going...needless to say there were a few awkward moments of silence.  Like I can not understand how people can just sit back and watch life go by and not like grab it and go with it. 

While, I have been working at the bank, I am thinking of either getting a part time job or looking for a better job so I can get out of the apartment and live on my own.   I mean I love my bf, after everything I have written before I think its almost time.  I mean of course I hope everyday that something changes but he does not want to make changes because he is happy and content.  But I'm not happy and content.  I kind of wish he would wake up already and realize a lot of things, but how can you when you won;t go out of your comfort zone either.

My best friend called me yesterday with horrible news...her father admitted that he has a gf...and yes he is still married to my best friend;s mom.  So, I have been trying to be there for her and just like call and check up on her and make sure she is ok.  Ithink when she comes back from vacation with her one friend we are gonna have like a night of wine and girl movies or something.  I told her she can stay with me if she wanted to just get away from it all.  We shall see.

I am thinking of going back to college...but to study what I don;t know.  Like part of me is like get in the medical field, but the other part of me really wants to get into computers and design web pages and come up with concepts for games.  I would sooo make a sailor moon game if I could.  I don't know.  All I know is I need to do something out to feed my brain....maybe even take like some kind of creative writing class.  I dunno.  So much up in the air. 
 

Sooo last night I wrote a list of things that I need to get done for today and I am happy to say I have completed a good part of it last night!  Yay!! I am trying to stay on top of a lot of things here like the wash and cleaning.  I wish my boyfriend would help out though.  Like for example, I have to ask him a few times to please take the recycables out or the trash out.  Or he will see things laying around and he does nothing about it.  Like, I understand he works manual labor but I am so tired of just being the only one who cleans up.  Is it that hard to throw a load of laundry in?  I mean I am not a wonder woman..like it really makes me think about if we ever have children.  I can not work full time and then come home and take care of a house and kids.  I am going to need help!!  So I dunno.  I have said a few things but like they go unheard.  I don;t know we shall see.  Anyway, I gotta get ready for work.  Later!

Finally able to get online and actually write about my life...

1st-  I finished my teller training and of course passed the test.  Surprisingly enough I actually had to study.  Like really made me think because I had two policies running through my brain.

2- I visited with my parents for like almost all day Sunday which was nice to see them and just hang out.  My mom is not doing well though.  She has herniated discs like the first three vertebrae in her neck...which means that they can not do any surgery on her and pretty much she has to live with muscle spasms and pain for the rest of her life.  Her job does not help at all..being a nurse always on her feet and helping move patients. 

3- I made the BEST chicken ever the other day...like I made this mustard-lemon marinade and topping,  I have to give myself some major props!  It was WONDERFUL!!  Wohooo I can cook!!

4- And great news!! I finally figured out the names for the main villians  in my story!!!  Plus, I wrote a drabble..well a few actually.  LOL I'm working on my story and I get a new idea and start a story.  Hehehe oh well when the inspiration strikes me! 

Anyway, I'm watching CMT awards!! Later

Lots of rain here...warm but rainy.  This weather is bad for sitting down and just listening to someone teach you.  As for the list I made...I completed it all!!  YAY!!  I always love when I get things done.  Yesterday was really uninventful.  Like I wish I could say I did something spectacular but I didnt.  So not much to report.

Well, my "day" does not begin until another 6 minutes from now.  I have decided that at 6am I will begin whatever needs to get done but for right now I use the few moments just for me to kind of like center.  I do not have a phrase i say over and over just the quite.  I have a list of things to get accomplished today...

1. Work out for 30 minutes
2. Clean up the kitchen and living room
3. Study tonight
4. Throw at least two loads of laundry in
5.  Actually put away the clothes I wash

So we shall see what I do get done and what doesn't.  The working out will be a breeze because that is how I will start the day and it has been great because it actually gives me the energy I need for the rest of the day.   The other things are something to be desired but oh well.  They must be done. 

Anyway, gotta get going almost time to start.

Soo I have been at training now for two days and well I am excited and scared.  Like I know I will have more responsibilities than before and getting to learn a new system is all very overwhelming as it is so like yeah.  I am impressed though with how this company always wants you to continue their education and even has a program where you can learn about another department.  Seems like it shall be a great fit for me.  My other job has already erased me from their HR system, I found that out because i tried to see what my last paycheck will look like. 

As for writing, this week I am gonna have to take a break because I literally have to study for this teller class and get a passing grade in order to get my job.  So a i am writing up note cards and re-reading the chapter as well as reading the next chapter.  Gotta love it.  Anyway, I gotta go throw wash in and clean up the kitchen before I get back to studying.

Well, I am at work...my last day here...I feel soo good.  Like I can not wait to leave!  My b/f was trying to get me to stay home today but I would not do that.  There is a lot that needs to be done so I can actually be gone from the BC.  He was not too happy but oh well.  Soo I have a game plan for tonight...Clean my apartment(it is a mess!!), then pamper myself (do my nails and toes!!)  Hmm...I think I may stop and get some bubbles for my bath tub...and like a head rest thing ...ooo some candles too.  Yep. total relaxation.  I have no idea if my b/f is going to be home today because he of course has to go to his mommy and daddy's house so lord only knows.  I will NOT pick him up if he was drinking.  He can stay there for all I care right about now.  I am sick of his parents and their constant need to cling on to their children and not let them grow up.  I think I get soo pissed because they EXPECT him to come home on the weekends to visit with them and like stay over.  They told him he needed to move out and when he does this is what happens.  Like it is ruining our relationship and they do not care.  They want their children to rely on them and not grow up.  Grrr.. I just have to vent because it gets me frustrated.  And when I try and talk to him about it he gets upset because its his parents.  I think we shall see what happens but to be honest I need him to like grow up. 

I am also debabting getting a part time job at like a local store or something to bring in more money so I can buy things I need like clothes and pay off my cc faster.  Plus, save money.  We shall see what happens. 

As for raining bubbles...someone put bubbles in the fountain outside and they are going all over.  I personally think it is funny but the building owners are not happy about it and fear it will hurt their precious fountain.   Hey at least it bubbles in a fountain and not graffiti(sp?)   Anyway, gotta get goin

I have found quite a few names in different name generators...now I have to pick which I like best and make sure they all tie in together somehow.  Other than that not much else was done.  I had that going away dinner last night which was nice to see everyone from my old banking center.  Its funny how like you really miss people...I know I will not work with another group like them  unless I am with them.  The chemistry they all have together is wonderful and they act like a family.  Of course they fight but its not like the fighting is so down and dirty.  Mostly, they play tricks on each other..take for example, the one lady LOVES to gamble.  A new casino has opened up for only a week and she has been there 4 times already.  So, my ex manager left her a note saying the bank needs her to call about her mortgage and to please reference it ( he gave her the number to gambler's anaymous) so she calls and is not paying attention to the woman her answers and she goes on to say 'Hi, my name is Susie I work for Bank of America, I'm calling in regards to my mortgage.  The lady goes what?  So she says the whole thing again and the lady says 'miss, this is the number for people who have a gambling problem.' LOL!!!  See, I miss that!! At my current banking center there is no way we would get a way with that.  Like people would have heart attacks (literally) if something like that was done.    Too bad too because I think you need that kind of silliness in order to just survive the stressful times. Anyway, gotta go and get ready for work.  Later!

Its Wednesday morning...only two more days not counting today and I will be done at my current job and starting a new job on Monday.  I am very excited but also scared, I know that is normal though.  I have so many ideas brewing through my head about what I can do at this new place.  Should be interesting.  Anyhow, my one co-worker asked me the other day  who is this new person emerging?  I was like what do you mean? She said just that I'm more energetic and like lets meet our goals.  I thought I about that for awhile and I began to realize how much work does affect your moods.  To be honest, the banking center I was at just drove me nuts.  The manager was sooo nice but sooo anal.  I understand why, but it takes a toll on those you work with when you are constantly at them with something or you repeat yourself 6 times in a row about something we already know.  Do not get me wrong she was wonderful as a person and knew her job very well, but I just wish she would have backed off a little more and not stressed me out.  I read a study once and they said that women managers actually stress the other women out in their office more than a male.  How that can be I do not know, but I kind of think it is true depending on the person.  For example, when I manage I try to keep the atmosphere light and while I do repeat some things it is like reminding the person a few hours later and normally its about a certain task they must complete.  Other than that though I get my things done and still keep it fun.

As for writing I had tons of brainstorms while eating my hoagie.  Like new concepts I never thought of.  I have developed the reason as to why the evil woman wants to take over the universe and get rid of the sailor scouts.  I am still having trouble with the names though.  You know how the generals where named after crystals...I want these new villians to be named after something too, but like I can not find anything cool sounding that does have a pretty good meaning to it.  Maybe I am putting too much pressure on names but sometimes I really feel names do help the story  and give it that edge.  I hate reading stories and the names are just bland especially when the story is amazing!  Like when you read a name and then get to know the character it should be like yeah I can see them as a Lizzie. 

Tonight I have a dinner to go to with the people I use to work with at my old banking center.  So I do not know how much writing I will get done today.  We shall see though.  Anyway, I gotta get going so I can get ready for work.